keeping my fingers crossed

I have been drowning myself in all things Christmas these days. Never have I seen that many artificial pines trees, ornaments and lights in my life before. And neither have I ever attempted to decorate one till now. Beautifully adorned Christmas trees are meant to be admired from a distance, dazzling people with their glitter and chasing lights. Hopefully, mine will turn out just like all her pretty and nice counterparts...That makes it 2 hopes for the week since the pin badges will only be ready for collection on Friday...

strange forces of nature

Back to wicked wonderland. The grass has been trimmed. The wooden fence is given a fresh coat of paint.

This is way too much of a coincidence. In the midst of tidying up wicked wonderland, I found the above. They were meant for an entry dated 15.11.2004. I never got around to piecing my thoughts together for that day last year. Upon seeing it now, I know I have to wake my brain up from that slumber party gone wrong and try my best to post a decent entry. It is a case of now or never or to wait a year later. I chose the most former. However, it is a struggle no doubt. My favourite hobby at the moment is to watch the cursor blink away. The memory is really failing me. Was it 54 blinks per minute or 45 blinks per minute? It is a scary thing to watch time pass me by just like that. By the second. And before anyone of us realises, we'll be hearing Auld Lang Syne and welcoming 2006. Sarah is having her one year old party in a few weeks' time. The best part is i have yet to post her pretty birthday cake that was taken during her one month old celebration. Wow. I wonder what took me so long.

the end

I have an urge to kill this site these days. Perhaps I should.

last call

Is it me or is it me? August seems to be in a hurry to leave. Goodbye my dear friend. I'll see you in a year's time. Enjoy your holiday. Don't miss me too much.

the day after the slumber party

I have been very lazy for a long time. The truth is I do not remember being hardworking before. Maybe only less lazy at times. I suppose it is time for me to wake up.

distracted me

I woke up this morning only to realize I have forgotten to remove my contact lenses the night before. And for a moment, I thought my eyesight has gotten the better of me. Wishful thinking on my part.

Life should be like a yummy chocolate-coated strawberry.

oh dear

I think there's an expiry date to love. And I think I'm in deep shit.

so sad

I wonder how she feels when she realized that the expired love of his life is in so many ways better than her. I wonder why he even goes for her. I wonder what he sees in her. I wonder if she can even ever replace her. I wonder if they will last.

time to work on the handwriting

I couldn't resist buying these lovely letter pads the other day. Now, I'm wondering who I should write to.

calling mr kettle

I like to visit the sites of other people. Every now and then, there are always new things to read about and pretty pictures to wow over. And when there isn't any post for the day, I always wonder why.

of hope and love

Hello Sarah. I can't wait for you to grow up a little. Just a little. So that I wouldn't age a lot.

last day of the year

It hasn't been a terrific year. The way 04 is ending doesn't make it any better. It's a sombre mood around. People are grieving. Even the sky's weeping. There's much to talk about here but nothing worth mentioning. All other stuffs seem so frivolous. Everything else pales in comparison.

27th december

I was pretty surprised when I first received this organiser. The first date to kickstart the new year shows 27th December. Coincidentally, this is my favourite day of the year. I wonder whether it is a sign. A sign that a new beginning awaits me not on the first day of 2005 but on this particular day itself. So, as from today onwards, I shall resolve to be a less lazy, more disciplined and better person. May my life be filled with more happines, prosperity and peace.

what a christmas

This is really strange. The days before Christmas were filled with merry carols coming from a few blocks away. Every day when I'm sitting in front of my computer, the left ear would hear a different tune from that shopping mall. The music never stopped. And now that Christmas is finally here, there is not a single sound coming from there at all. I have been straining my ears hoping to catch something for the last 3 hours but I thought I heard nothing.

mad and madder

I think I'm going mad. My brain isn't functioning well these days. I wonder why. The day before, I ordered minced meat noodles from my favourite uncle. He asked me, "Yao bu yao la?" Immediately, I shook my head. I thought he was asking me whether I wanted lard. I ended up eating noodles with tomato sauce and extra vinegar (my usual request) in it. Super bad combination. And come to think of it, uncle doesn't speak English. Why would he ask me about lard? Today was no better. I was smsing Lousyboy halfway when suddenly I thought I forgot to bring the phone out. How could the thought enter my head when the phone was in my hand all along? I was struck momentarily. I wonder what's happening to me. Could the central body committee have decided to stage an end of the year cleaning of the brain without informing me? Could it be the brain and the hands aren't on talking terms? Or maybe it's just me. They must have not liked me anymore. So sad.

demoralizing month of the year

It's confirmed. I can't drive to save my life. I feel like an idiot. No, I shall not blame the vito.

die

A sudden realization hit me. I realize I forgot how to paint.

in the face of reality

I attended a workshop on how to teach creatively on Saturday. All of which lasted for a mere 2-hour. I wish it could have been longer. There was only that much that could be taught. I am not quite sure whether I will be able to teach creatively thereafter but I certainly enjoyed the class. It allowed me to be a student once more. I love that feeling. Being in a class of people, taking notes, trying my best to pay attention to the teacher, stifling a few yawns here and there, daydreaming a bit, having drawing exercises... All of it. It made me realize how much I miss being in school. There is so much that I know not of and so much that I still need to learn. I wonder what I was doing all those years as a student. How much of those taught went into my head and remained there? Sadly, I doubt it was a lot. I know I could have done better but mediocrity was my best friend then. It is not so much about the grades but more to do with the amount of knowledge that slipped pass me. Those knowledge that I threw away without realizing or perhaps recklessly. I could have been a better person but I am not. With regrets and guilt, an ignorant fool wrote this.

:: And to make myself feel better, I am posting what I did during the workshop. Relishing every moment of it.

11 months just passed me by.

This is so scary. It is the last month of the year. Just like that.